Pain

"समझा न कोई दिल की बात को,
दर्द दुनिया ने बिन सोचे ही दे दिया,
सह गए जो हम अगर दर्द को चुपके से,
तो फिर हमको पत्थर दिल कह दिया।"
When i heard the song dard-e-disco i laughed my guts off. i mean अगर दिल में दर्द हैं तो disco क्यूँ करता हैं? Then when it happened to me, i realized that when the heart hurts there's nothing a guy can do but go insane. Sometimes people do strange things, things which they never intend to do. sometimes the regret later on their folly. Sometimes they r glad that they did the stupidity which noone else did. Today i met sumone in whom i saw myself, when i was younger and immature, no knowing what love is all about. the person asked me for my help and i gladly did so, then that person thanked me, for my co-operation. i am only glad that the person found out a way from her sorrow. my life is no longer mine, i died the very day when i realized that my love is never going to be mine... ... ... ... ... but now i want to come over it, i have cried , i have made others laugh, i have sacrificed my love, i have led a selfless life... ... ...
i want to live my life the way i want to. i wanna be the king of m own life... ... ... ... ... ...
i wanna see the world... ... ... ... i wanna be loved... ... ... i want her back... ... ... ... but i cant. i have made the biggest sacrifice anyone ever could, and, i will hold true to it... ... ...
till my last gasp of air...
All through my teen age life, through all my experiences, my victories and my failures, i have learnt many things. one of them is that sometimes it takes moments to get your true love, and othertimes, one life time isn't enough.
the best we can do is find happiness in the happiness of the person whom we love... ... ... ... ... even if that means enduring heartache.
"दिल दिया ऐतबार की हद थी
जान दे दी यह मेरे प्यार की हद थी
मर कर भी आँखें खुली रह गई
और कुछ नही यह तेरे इंतज़ार की हद थी ."