My love..

"कभी किसी से ज़िक्र-ए-जुदाई मत करना
इस दोस्त से कभी रसवाई मत करना
जब दिल टूट जाये हमारी दोस्ती से तो बता देना
बिन बताये बेवफाई मत करना"
This is exactly what I told her when I caught my girl cheating on me. Its funny how sometimes we are so into ourselves that we forget to give a damn about those who love us. I was ready for everything when I began the relationship with her, absolutely anything. I did whatever she wanted me to do, talk to her whenever she wants, take her out on dates, on her favourite movies, spend evenings watching the sunset by the beach together,every dang thing, maybe it wasn't enough to convince her that I love her. Or maybe I myself wasn't convinced that I love her.
Those who know me, know that I had a crush on my very good friend. Since i was in 6th grade, I looked stupid and was excessively obese at that time, also i was shy and so i never let her know, by the time i went in 8th i trimmed down a lot and she looked superb too, then one day when i won the interschool quiz she actually smiled at me, i was in the seventh heaven in 9th i gave the exam for school leadership and was selected as the captain of sports events amongst the boys, she gave the same test meant for girls and she was made my vice, on the day of our induction she was standing by my side to get the sash of honor. Imagine, the girl of my dreams, standing by my side looking forward to get the same honor as i was about to get, the same responsibilities the same powers, i felt like we were getting married or something like that laughed at that to myself, we collected the honorary sashes and cheered at the crowd. on the annual sports day, we had the honors to run the opening lap with the torch of victory in our hands, during that incident an accident occured, we were running with the flame in our hand and the kerosene leaked and ran down the shaft of the torch.i held it tightly to stop it from falling on her hand, my hand burnt in the process, but she was safe, that whs more important to me, i got ugly bisters all over my palm and the back of it but its fine. I had tried to propose her on several earlier occasions and so she had come to know of it, my sister who is also a very good friend of hers also tried to convince her about it, but she was not ready to lend an ear. then we never spoke about it then before the algebra paper of SSC i called her, it was 1130 in the night, it was normal of students to wake up late in the nights, i called her and told her that i love her....she said she knows that it already but she doesnt love me,without sayiing or listening to much i hung up. on the day of my results she gave me a call and after the usual talk said that she did wrong and she wants to be friends with me, i said okay and hung up the phone, in my fyjc i got an sms in which she said shes broken up, i was sad for her, and called her, after calming her down i told her that i am always here for her, she thought that i was saying it as a friend and confessed that she is never gonna love anyone else.She never loved me, loved sum one else. She was happy with him, her happiness was more important than my selfishness. I let go of her, she knew all along that I loved her, I m saying loved because it isn't infatuation. I still continue to love her.
She's broken up with her boyfriend, she still loves him though. Since I know how it is to lose someone you love, I know what she feels and what is going on through her heart because that is what went on inside my mind. I wouldn't say I was not sad when she told me over the phone that she will never love anyone else, honestly I was too brokenhearted to tell her that I still love her.
We remain best friends till date...
Yet I wanna send this message to her.
Babe,
if u ever read this,
please remember:
"तू सिर्फ़ तसव्वुर ही नही
हकीकत है मेरी
तू सिर्फ़ ज़फर ही नही
ताक़त है मेरी
तू सिर्फ़ सर्वात ही नही
लियाक़त है मेरी
तू सिर्फ़ इल्म ही नही
हिजाकात है मेरी"
I love you
Now and for ever